The Ripple Effect

If you could go back in time and change something knowing it would change everything else, would you?

       Sometimes I wonder what would have been, had it all been different. Creating a completely altered reality, and leaving this one behind. You might still be here, had I done just one thing different. I kick myself everyday, hating the fact that I could have changed that track. But should I? What could have been? If it's all in His timing, just let me see the that bigger picture. Because while I know there's a plan and that big guiding hand, sometimes, I want to be the hand, and make that plan mine. At least I think. If I had that opportunity presented to me at this very moment, I can't say I would take it. As bad as I want you here, I still want Him to steer. If I took control, everything would change, people, places, lives, and journeys, like a pebble as it leaves ripples across a pond. We would have you back, but what would we have lost? Even when everything else fades, the memories will remain, never to be taken away. Over these past two years you have taught me more than in the two we had together. While here you showed me how to live everyday like it was your last, but now that you're there, I can see what had been showing me; always pouring yourself into each moment with no promise of tomorrow. You never strived to make your presence noticed, but you sure have made your absence felt. Through this all, I still cannot help but wonder, where would your ripples have led?